Well almost. You sure feel like you can do anything. Something that made my day, I was walking along oxford street early this morning, past the old car repairs and the pointless, but awesome card decorating place, when I noticed it was Autumn. You know when something just hits you like that?

Theres the wind

the smell

and then it ocurred to me that it must have been around this time last year that I started this blog.

so happy birthday blog!

I sometimes spend an hour thinking about whether I want to look cool or just look like I don’t care, do you ever get that?

here is my dilemma. Its sad but it gets me:

• I love to dress up, I like to think about the colour combination, the mix of era’s and whether i wear one of my crazy headscarfs.
• I like to walk around in trackies and bare feet.

So thats my problem, I see choosing clothes as like a watered-down, much more self-concious version of art.

I think I just wore jeans and a cool silky hooded jacket thing, which sort of combined the two of my needs, also, the silky jacket is a lot like a pajama top, which I like.

gah, why am I talking about clothes?

ANYWAY!!

another thing that made my day (does that mean i had two days in one? or maybe it just means two things went into making it good…)

the new Frankie is out!

and it came out a day early!

and I love nice surprises like that, although it meant I didnt have enough money to get sushi, that was fine, frankie fills me up quite nicely :)

I started thinking a bit about last year, and all the crazy shit that happened.

moving furniture in our boarding house rooms

sitting in the top compartments of cupboards

taking stupid photos

taking showers randomly, with our clothes on, because school had made us so numb.

dancing in the bathrooms

sprinting up and down the corridoors

watching stupid daytime tv

 

to be honest, I miss running up to my friends in our year area and givng them massive hugs so that they run out of breath, and then turning up late to economics, or missing the bus for sport.

I miss walking along the sun-drenched road to the beach after school, singing and dancing to the presets.

Running up the side of the tunnel things.

sitting on a boat in the middle of a playground.

looking at the people who were free and wishing we could be them

I didn’t truly appreciate having friends with me all the time.

I was always scared of not having friends there all the time, but I never knew what it would be like.

 

wow

another silly rant.

I’ll leave you there

 happy birthday blog!