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I used to have these dreams, when I was young and lonely.

the one I remember most vividly is this dream where I’m sitting at the end of this giant long telescope that keeps going out into space till you can’t even see the earth. I’d sit at the end and bash my legs on the lenses as the boredom sunk in. There was no point even trying to get back to earth, I’d start walking and then give up and walk back to the edge. I’d fear falling off, where I would end up floating amongst space junk, in an abyss that swallowed my heart, body and mind.

gosh what a troubled child I was.

Other dreams were pretty horrid. I remember my sister jumping off our balcony in Adelaide, she would have been aiming to jump into the pool. Although I never saw what happened, I knew she hadn’t made it, and instead, those spiky child-proof poles would enter my mind.

Did you ever have a dream where everything just goes really fast, music is on fast forward and people move and talk really quickly. These were disturbing dreams, I’m yet to find someone who has had a similar experience.